Dad got me another cactus from Walmart <3 This one is gonna be called Midori

Went to Punahou Carnival with Tim, Brooks, Janis, Moody, and Moodys friends. It was fun till we ran out of money.

Tim won me Tim(?) from the game booth :)

Espeon figure made by Emberger

Game Plan of the Plan

After talking with multiple people who gave me advice on what I want to do after college, I finally decided what I'm going to do now in help of choosing the career I will go in.

It hit me after I talked with Uncle Stan. He told me that it's great that I'm interning now because it gives me an advantage and helps me weed out what I want to do later. I think that I want to try out more internships and jobs to see what I like and don't like instead of jumping the gun and say that I'll be this because who knows, I might end up hating my job. You can't just base a career off of the income you get (well that's what I think).

It pains me to quit the internship I have now but I think it's for the best because I want to gain more experience in other fields, cross out the careers that I wouldn't want to get, find a job that I would be happy with, then putting all my focus in school so I can get that job.

If I had the choice of having a high paying job but I hate it vs. a low paying job but I love it, I would go with the latter. No point in working for the rest of your life if you hate the job.

As weird as it is, I enjoy work more than school. Also math wants to make me face palm on how easy the material is. We're learning stuff that they teach you in middle school ._. At least it's an easy class

Last night was so much fun. Even though some things were unexpected, it went good. I got to China Town around 4ish and meet up with Kellen, walked around, bought popcorn, then got dragged to go to Kellen's family dinner. Like how I get dragged into everything else by just hanging out with Kellen.

After dinner we meet up with Danny and Ember and walked around more. Later on I got a crepe with Kellen (apparently he wanted to pay for everything, even the popcorn). We saw Brandi and Thad! Man seeing those two together is hilarious, just like a sit com. I wanted to get some Dragon Whisker Candy but the wait for it was just too long. We left around 9, went to go pick up Jerald and meet up at Embers house. Then we fit everyone in one car and went to Walmart at Pearlcity.

Kellen felt like driving so he asked me if I wanted to go to Tantlaus, which was awesome. The drive to Tantlaus was pretty cool, everything was pitch black, so you have to be a pretty good driver also we were going at a pretty fast pace too. The view was beautiful, one day when I get a better camera I will defiantly take pictures at Tantlaus. After that for some reason we went all the way to Waipio then back to drop everyone at home.

Long night but it was really enjoyable cause I was out with great friends! :) Hopefully we can do more of these things before Kellen goes back to the mainland.

My minds in a jumbled up mess :/

It’s hard to let go. Yes it’s painful and sad but you have to know when to let go for the better. It’s also hard to tell when to let go of something until something hits you hard. Someone told me it’s okay to be sad. If you didn’t care at all you wouldn’t be sad in the first place. It’ll be alright because even though it hurts, it will heal over time.

That’s what I keep telling myself. I talked it over with three different friends and made up my mind. But the only thing is will I be able to do confront it? I’m not sure if I’m able to spit those words out and say it properly. I’m afraid that I’ll mess it up and fck everything over…

I had so much fun today with just one of my closest friends and I. It's been forever since I actually had some bonding time with her cause her bf always steals her away from me. The original plan was to go to Ward around 10ish with her, her sister, and bf. But it only ended up with her and me cause the sister was too tired to go and the bf was still sleeping.

During the whole time we were just catching up and cracking out jokes. I really miss doing that with her. I really need more girl time. There's a reason why I'm so tomboyish.

She also said that she's taking me Christmas shopping instead of her sister now since she likes the gifts I usually get for her.

Christmas Hangout

I had so much fun on Wednesday hanging out with the gang again. It's just been waaaaay too long since I last hanged out with everyone. Plus talking to the guys during school isn't the same as talking to them during break cause they're more funny since everyone doesn't have to worry about school. We hanged out from 10:30am to 10:30pm. It was long but fun. I have to say that I really needed it because it's been forever since I laughed so much that my throat got sore. Even the car rides to Kapolei, the shopping center, park, and house was entertaining.

When I got to Tim's place I was amazed on how freaking big it was. The second floor was pretty much like a dance studio. And on the first floor there was even a pool table in the living room. For some reason Tim's sister got a unicycle yet no one is able to ride it properly. So then at least half of the group tried to ride it, pretty entertaining specially when it was the guys riding it. We hanged out at Tim's place till around noon for most of the group to arrive and get some lunch. I didn't know how close Tim lived from Kapolei shopping center because I remembered that Jessica lived at least a 5-6 minute drive away from the shopping center but for Tim it was like 2 minutes.

After lunch we went back to Tim's place where we met up with two more friends. I took a short nap since I had a small headache then we all headed to the park. We were playing a combination of soccer, volleyball, and football. For some reason we brought a basketball but didn't play with it. Then we went to another park for better grass, which was a good idea since there was some random ditches. I swear there's like 2-3 parks all close-by to each other in Kapolei. So half of the group was playing catch while the other half was sitting down and playing cards. It was quite fun, we were there for at least an hour. I swear I didn't even notice time passing by so fast.

When we went back to the house, pretty much all the girls including me dominated Tim's room so then we could change to our "fancy" wear. We were in there for at least a good half an hour, getting ready for dinner. Tim's family is awesome, they helped us with the food so much that now I wished that I got something for them. Dinner's conversation is always interesting with the gang since they're so random that we just talk about any subject. Then it got interpreted with a photo session. We all dressed fancy so then we could take a picture and send it to Marcus since he wasn't able to come back to Hawaii for Christmas this year :[ It took at least half an hour because we did funny pictures too. We even came up with ideas to take random photos, make it into a calendar and send that to Marcus as a x-mas gift.

There was a photo session with just the girls and just the guys. I swear that Nathan and Leon was enjoying the photo shoot more than the girls and I since they were like "Oh Oh do a sexy pose!", "Oh but we're surrounded by such sexy girls we have to take a picture!", and "Bite your guys lip and put a finger underneath!". After that all the girls changed from their dresses. Then it came to the guys turn to have a photo shoot. We were having ideas of doing funny trying to be sexy poses with the guys, just for Marcus.

After cleaning up and everything we brought out the gifts for Secret Santa. Nicole passed out all the gifts to everyone and realized that I didn't get one. So she asked everyone who had me for Secret Santa and no one responded. Then like at least 5 people said that I could have their gift. That's so sweet of them, I would actually do this too if it was another person in the group who didn't get a gift for SS. Then Kenny realized that the gift he got for SS wasn't there then ran to the tree, grabbed it and gave it to me. Even though it said Janis on it. Janis already had another gift who went WTF when she saw it so it was probably Nicoles roommate who messed up giving people the names for SS.

I have to say that practically everyone's SS gift was really thoughtful. We all got something that we like for each other. And I'm really glad that Kenny likes the SS gift I got him. I knew that he would like the Yu-Gi-Oh cards but I wasn't so sure about the bracelet. I like the gift that he got for me in SS too. It's a 3D jigsaw puzzle of Rilakkuma. Brooklyn's gift was the most funniest to watch being unwrapped because it was wrapped in over five layers of different materials! Overall playing SS with the group was great this year! It shows how much we know each other because we all got something that the other person likes.

We were passing out gifts after SS. Apparently Janis and Brooklyn said that they love the gifts that I got them since it's always something that they can use, need, or they just like it. I'm pretty glad that they like the gifts I got them, they both hugged me at the same time too~ Janis brought poppers with the confetti and sound that we played with for awhile xD

Tim busted out the speakers and lights after. We had like the rave music and we were either dancing, sitting down, having a nerf gun war, or having a massage like me. But after awhile we turned the lights back on and it was mostly either experimenting with pictures or playing nerf guns. I join in the war a little after. It was actually really fun! We weren't keeping points or anything, just shooting each other with the darts. I wouldn't mind playing again really.

We just hanged out after the nerf gun war and started packing up our stuff. Said our goodbyes to everyone and thank yous to Tim's awesome family. I'm so grateful that they let us have the party and their homes, even though we were pretty loud during the rave and nerf gun time.

I am defiantly happy that I came took the day off and hanged out with everyone for the whole day. Totally worth it! I really need to hang out with everyone more often before they leave again.